How do you explain to someone that you're crazy?  How do you explain the feelings in your head?  The constant battle that your brain is having?  How do you describe the feeling of not wanting to ever wake up again?  The out of body experiences where you don't even recognize yourself?

I cry.

I scream.

I yell.

I get angry.

I pretend.

I am lost.

I've hit that wall, and now I have to face what I thought I wouldn't have to again.  The upward battle of fighting to find myself again.   Except that this time I there is a good chance I won't find myself.

I need help.