I think that no matter how much I want things to move forward, they're always going to take a step back.  Some say the future is scary.  Like they are afraid because they don't know what is going to happen.

You wanna know what I'm scared of?

Things staying the same.  That I'll never get past this rut.  That I'll be stuck here forever, living this same life, day after day.  Like nothing is really going to come in the right way.

And as soon as I get on my feet, the pendulum swings back and knocks me back down.