the past couple days have left me with a knot in my throat and feelin pretty alone.  i guess i've realized just how i'm still trapped in this cage that i've been in the past few years.  i watch everyone else be happy and get to live, while i'm still stuck waiting for my life to actually start.  i just wish i could snap my fingers and it be 6 months from now.

tonight the emotional side of my medications are hitting me.  i'm just gonna go to bed.


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this was posted after lurking facebook for a few hours and talkin to friends i hadnt talked to in quite awhile.